Hey so this new area is good. Yea we can tract. Super safe and its good. But I have to babysit my comp. Like I have to wake him up in the morning and he still doesn't get out of bed until 7. I finally got better but got hit with something even worse i think. I got homesick and well it sucks... I just don't know what to do but I am struggling
this week cause I've been dealing with homesickness and stress and yea.... I've tried to work but considering I can't talk in a lesson its hard to work. Remember when we moved and how I was shy all over again. Well that's how I've been since I left the MTC and especially now being transferred. I don't what to do. I have prayed hard and a lot and still don't know what to do...But I'm 6 months in the mission and still can't talk to people for nothing, like seriously I'll start then freeze up and stare at my comp asking/pleading to save me form the awkward silence, with everyone looking at me. None of my comps have been excited to work. Thats why I wonder if I should give up. I don't have an appetite and I'm a mess. Idk if its the heat but my body is swollen. I had to loosen my shoes quite a bit and I can't really take my ring off anymore for right now anyways.
Yea I drink a ton, My sweat tastes like water actually. Like not really that salty. But I was almost eaten alive last night by like these bugs. They aren't mosquitoes they're like gnats that bite and they ITCH!!!! Like crazy!!!!
Thats crazy. I sweat 24/7 though. Seriously though. So much humidity. They don't understand what dry is. I tried to explain it and they were like huh? It could be my Spanish too though. Idk
Umm I tried pig head this week, that was gross. It was chewy. Not really any seafood, they like a pasta that has the shell pasta with ummm, its like a cold pasta salad with tuna except the tuna is bad. Like the texture is nasty.
Oh, still no pictures... its a computer thing...
Love you
Tyler
(mom)
I was wondering how the transfer would affect you. You don't like change... Your dad doesn't either. And really I don't either.
I told you I applied for a job... Many actually. Just filling in the application was really hard for me...like fear was just flowing through me. I don't feel qualified or feel like I'm always being judged, or what can I offer kind of feelings. Dad reminded me that if job opportunities present it is because the Lord is blessing me. And if it's a gift from the Lord then he's going to give me the strength I need to do the job. I just have to really lean on him.
Remind yourself that 1, you know the Lord is protecting you, 2, this transfer was a blessing for enduring Ipis. If your companion sleeps in... Cultural lazy thing but maybe you could compromise and either get an extra 30 minutes sleep to get over your bug or you get extra quiet time to study. Find the tender mercy there somehow. I think you will always find the native comps will not be go getters. Can you imagine Eric as a go getter? Doesn't mean they don't carry the spirit with them they just do things different.
Just know that it will probably take another week or so to get your feet under you again and you will be good to go again. Don't be hard on yourself. Don't compare yourself to others. Some people thrive on change some don't.
I love you and have all the faith in the world that you are doing a great job! Stay faithful and trusting in the lord and you have great blessings awaiting you. I read your mission letter Friday as I was preparing my talk and the last paragraph talked all about those blessings. Know that your emotional self is probably weak too because of being physically sick. It's a lot to go through.
(We chatted back and forth a bit then this cool miracle happened)
Ok... So big miracle just occurred... We got infested with ants on Friday but just before that this guy came soliciting customers for his bug service ... At first we were like naw ... But then he came back later and said he had to have us as customers and offered us a deal that was like 90% off. So we caved in and thought well ok. So just now they just got here to treat the house... Here's the miracle part, they are both returned missionaries and I asked them what they felt... They said they both went through the exact same thing. One went to Peru and the other Korea. They said they didn't feel comfortable with the language until about a year. They said native comps were the hardest but they would encourage you to focus on getting to know the comp before trying to push hard in the work. They said don't give up. Talk to Martinez. Tell him what you're feeling and see if he will help. If you need to talk to pres for counsel that's fine and get a blessing but coming home really isn't an option. My heart is so full that these guys got here the very moment they did. Can't you see just how mindful the Lord is of you right now? He loves you so much he infested us with ants :) . He knows your struggles. Please be kind to yourself. Maybe lighten up on your expectations of the language and teaching. Keep praying, keeping studying. It will come!
All our love
Mom and Dad
Thanks for everything mom You're awesome! I'll lighten up, ask for a blessing maybe from my zone leaders because they're american and so they could do it in English. But its almost time. I have 5 min but I love you so much mom!
Tyler
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